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We snapped a few pictures with him, changing up the poses for the photographer, who was also a prisoner wielding a dated digital camera. Finally sitting down with our friend, a little silence preceded a warm conversation in which we told him about where we’d grown up, where we’d gone to school, and what brought us to Philly. In turn, he told us about the different hats he wore – as a mentor, student, fiancé, nephew, grandchild, and attendant at the janitorial chemical closet. His eyes twinkled as he anticipated us speaking, his brow furrowed as he outlined the suicide epidemic in Houtzdale. His chest heaved as he sighed, reflecting on the constant change in prison and the difficulties everyone inside had adjusting to them.
“Change,” he told us, “is the only constant in prison.”
A roll call from the Correctional Officer at the elevated desk at the front of the room called the afternoon visiting block to a close. We shuffled our feet to the front as we vowed to bring money next time for the vending machines only in the visiting room with the better snacks and figured out how we could get the pictures we took into our hands. Evan and I walked down a long, cinderblock hall similar to ones found in our high schools while Chachi was subjected to a routine strip search – prisoners are strip searched after every visit – forced to expose his body to the scrutiny of Correctional Officers. We climbed back into the car and drove through small towns, passing the Bass Pro Shops we had stretched our legs at earlier, and made it back to Philadelphia, blocks from where Chachi had spent his first years of life. Evan made me think that I had lost the car key that he had absent-mindedly put in his bag. Chachi typed emails and penned letters to us thanking us for taking the time to build a connection in spite of all the institutional repression.
The visit took the whole day, and it was frustrating jumping through each little hoop just to get in the door, but so often it’s the first time that’s the hardest. I know all three of us are deeply committed to building habits that build community that’s what will get us through the hardest times.
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