**** my life.
I was given life without the possibility of a parole date.
Back against this cage, suffering,
Knowing we can be judged for mistakes made when we were 20.
Forever.
Ignorance, far from bliss.
Pain turns to rage when we don’t understand nothing.
The proclivity of kids who grow up with no guidance.
Detroit news channels, when they play my new interview;
They readily portray the violence.
Timeless, dramatized stories captivate an audience.
I wonder who misconstrued the lies for truth.
My diary filled with tunes of a misguided youth.
Maturity, needle in a haystack,
Found only after years of struggling,
Mistakes and discerning moments.
In the process of my resentencing,
Will I be judged for my potential
Or what I did when I was feeling hopeless?
I don’t know which.
Anxiety
The closer we get, it’s relentless.
Anomaly of a ‘bad guy,’
Whatever happens, at least I know I’m different.
Prioritize your actions when you want to show the difference.
How many prisoners do that
Only to be hindered by the system?
I put my face on YouTube
And was placed on permanent visitor restriction.
I wonder, would the judge give me a out-date
If I tell him I want to hug my sister?
Cheer for my nephew at a game?
Take my family out to dinner?
Would he believe me if I sincerely tell him that I felt for the victims?
“I’m sorry.”
Or would they ignore me and say I’m trying to manipulate my sentence?
Whatever the case,
Before you examinate me for potential outside these gates,
All I ask is, please, please, just see me for me.
Look me up on YouTube: Interview with prisoner Joseph Bigelow,
Exclusive from the penitentiary.
Sacrificed all I have for this, literally.
Refined—this is how the world should remember me.
You can reach me at JPay.com.
Before you criticize, why don’t you get to know me?
I’ll be sincere when I respond.
Nothing like the younger me;
Reflection in the mirror similar.
My mind aged an eternity.
All I desire is an opportunity.
I’ll show the world what happens when we change and strive.
Continuing down this journey of growth,
Even if I’m sentenced to a cell where I gotta die.
Free Casino.
These commentaries are recorded by Prison Radio.
