Hello my name is Jamil. Now, today, I always start off with today gonna be a good day, and today has been a good day. I got off the phone with my mother, and the last thing she told me was, “Jamil don’t get no write ups and come home.” And I don’t know why, but it started something inside of me, because staying write up free is very easier said than done. To stay clear of a write up in a level two prison is a hard thing. I’m gonna share an example.
Not too long ago, I was wrote up for trafficking. (Inaudible) Somebody gave me a cookie. It’s after somebody just had a stabbing. This after some dishes got found, that just got found. He wrote me up for a Class A for a cookie, knowing that I got some things going on in court. I done been wrote up for everything that you could think about for 17 years, except for the real stuff that puts you in a hole, the stuff that puts you in a SHU [Secure Housing Unit].
DHB, Disciplinary Hearing Board, is taking time from people. They’re having fun with these write ups, because it’s not just a write up. When you go in front of the Disciplinary Hearing Board with any kind of write up, 60 days they taking from you, 90 days they’re taking from you> It’s adding up. A caseworker approached me and he asked me, “Pirant, are you maxed out yet?” I looked at him, very calm, and I asked him, “What do you mean?” I know what he was hinting that. He said, “Are you maxed out yet?” I said, sir, my max out date is 2053. He looked a tired, he looked like he had some more work to do. I assured him, “I said it’s okay, today gonna be a good day.”
Because I know they could take all the time that they want to take, but they can’t take my mind. Because they can’t make me into nothing I never been. They can’t turn me into nothing I don’t have inside of me. And even with all that being said, I go to my caseworker office, and he had three time cuts sitting there for me, that I got to go downstate so I can get up out of this prison, and level down to a level one.
It’s about being patient. But patient ain’t easy. Staying write up free ain’t easy neither. But I know you just got to breathe and walk yourself through it, because if ain’t nobody else in charge, the Creator is. I’m not Gandhi about this, it piss me off. It piss me off times five, to know that somebody come in here, knowing they not even gonna work in here for another three months, writing you up for whatever they want to write you up for. And DHB, the Disciplinary Hearing Board, knowing that these write ups is wrong and still follow through with it. Taking time, taking your phone away, commissary away. Leave you in here stranded. It’s people in here dealing with real mental health, real addiction.
So, I just kind of want to share that, because I know they could take all the time that they want to take, but they can’t take my mind, and I know God is in charge, and he got me because he’s been helping me for 17 years in here. So, I’m thankful. Thank you.
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