Okay hi my name is Crystal Denise Clark my inmate number is 435064. I’m in WHV, the valley of death, this is real like, it’s so sad, I’m trying to stay strong. I’m in a lot of pain. For three weeks straight I’ve been trying to get to healthcare to see doctors to try to get some medication. They made me wait, I went over there today, at seven something this morning, to see Dr. Ellison. He looked at my ears — green, black, just came all out the ears it’s so swole, he downplayed it like it’s nothing wrong, wouldn’t give me anything. And I just asked them a question. I said, “How could you sit here and see how I’ve been affected and how my body is declining and the way I’m looking and not do anything? Did you see me suffering and not do anything? How could you go home and lay down and close your eyes when you know if somebody is hurting? And then say that you can help, and won’t do anything? Like how?”
I don’t understand, they’re so evil in here and I’m tired of this. I mean I slept — sitting up all last night because my head is — it feels like something’s moving in my brains. It gets tight and numb it’s just something is not right. It’s just not right and I’ll keep on telling them like it’s really scary. Nothing has been done. My heart has racing in my chest. If they know what it is, again on top of that, they got us living in the freezing cold. When air gets blown out it’s no heat. This is unacceptable what they are doing and getting away with everything.
When I report these, they ignore everything so they turn around and retaliate. You know what, they not gonna stop me, they not gonna silence me, that’s what they doing. They took my rights. I can’t — everything they doing to me right now I can’t write. I can’t write ‘em up because they stopped it.
Like, I’m just so, so sad of this and I’m tired of living like this. I’m tired of being in pain. I’m sick of this. I just want to tell y’all that ain’t nothing changed. Everything got worse. And I asked the doctor today, I said, “You had me waiting,” they had me waiting for over a year, “over a year to see the specialist and when I went to them, you told him not to give me anything,” and I asked him why. Y’all should have seen the look on his face, like the smirk on his face, like my life is, like my health is a game. Y’all should’ve seen the look on him. And he didn’t deny it, he shook his head. I said “Well, why are you won’t let them do they all tests so I can get the right help before it’s too late?” He just play games with the look on his face like, “Die”. That’s the look he gave me, like he’s trying to kill me. They want me to die.
But this is just so heartbreaking and I just I just wanted to tell y’all and because it’s snowing outside it’s slippery. I’m on the two-leg walker, I gotta walk outside, and I choose not to. They took the most important thing. They took everything mostly from me. Now he called me over there today and took my Benadryl and wants another pill for my allergies for the mold. They took everything and tried to make it seem like ain’t nothing wrong with me. I begged them. “Sir,” I cried to him, like, “You gonna take my Benadryl and you know I need this? You know I need this for my health.” I said, “What else you gonna take?” Man, this is heartbreaking what they doing. This is very heartbreaking.
They’re breaking me. Trying to punish me cause I’m speaking out for what they doing and I wouldn’t have to speak out if you would help me. You’re seeing these infections and stuffs in my brain. I’m telling you, you seeing it, and you see me today [unclear] and you not giving me anything for my pain but Tylenol like it’s a game.
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